what should i do?

i'm at a complete loss now.
i do not know how to tell you this.
i keep wondering how i should tell you these..
words are formed in my mind, but not my mouth.
these words are always stuck at my throat.
i know i cant delay these any longer..
the more i delay, the more you're puzzled, the more you'll hate me eventually..
so.. i'm gonna use my fingers to tell you these words which i've always wanted to say..

its not that i dont want to them know..
but its the possibility that i might never see you again that frightens me..
if i tell them now,
i risk losing you.
if i dont tell them now,
i still risk losing you.
tell me what i should do?
whenever you ask me when i'm gonna tell them..
i'm at a loss.
i would always try to explain to you.
but it seems that whatever answer i give you,
you're not satisfied because its not the answer you want.
just to let you know..
neither am i satisfied with the answer i am giving you.
i really wish to just tell them but i noe i cant.
if i do..
history will repeat itself again..
i dont want to spend sleepless nights again for 6months..
i dont want to have nightmare horrors which would always ruin my night for 6months..
i dont want to be unable to face them..
unable to face you..
what you said just now really freaked me out.
i'm not sure if you said it in an accident or you really mean it.
all i know is..
it really freaked me out.
just that one small simple answer got my mind into work..
what would happen if you really meant it?
would that mean that all the promises are gone?
all the promises are broken?
all the words have been taken back?
i dont dare to think..
it really frightens me..
we've not been tgt for long i know..
but in those short dates out with you..
it really brought me lots of memories..
things which i would think through again and again..
things which i know i will never forget..
what i know now is..
i really dont want to let you go..
i'm really trying very hard..
when you want to see me, i do my best to arrange my schedule..
now you want me to tell them, i'm also trying my best..
i need to prove to them that i can juggle both things.
there's really lots of things i want to say to you.
not through any kind of electronic devices,
and neither through the phone.
i want face to face.
but we dont ever have the time,
if not there's always someone around us.
i'm really doing my best already
even though the results of it are not satisfying you..
i'm really sorry..
i'm gonna try harder..
but what i need is more time..
i really hope you can understand.. i really hope that you can..
because i dont want this to be the last of us..
i want us to go on and on and on and on..

NO GAMES FOR ME!

CURRENT VENUE: YISHUN CHAMBERS

i'm bored to death.
really.. i mean it.
i came here to audi and then only to realise in the end that audi was patching.
what a wasted trip.
stared at the games available for a full 5 minutes,
and realised that it either didnt interest me, or that i didnt know how to play.
how pathetic.
Alexx is right beside me now,
playing a dunno wht game..
but seeing frm his facial expression, he's bored out too.
doesnt seem like he's enjoying himself alot.. ><
well.. neither am i.. but at least i have sth to do..
great.. he has sth to do... DOTA!
a game which i do not know how to play, and do not have any interest in it too.
damn! i wish he can just concentrate on his game..
AND STOP STARING AT WHAT I AM TYPING!
dont give me that look Alexx.
it wont work on me..
STOP LOOKINGG LARH!~
good. his game has just started..
his attention has been diverted away.. HOHOHOHO!
now i can type in peace without worrying that he will know what i want to type.
having stares and looks while typing is not a very good thing.
okay.. i take back the previous sentence that his attention has been diverted away.
he's still looking once in awhile..

just went causeway point to buy POP presents.
was about to shop happily when i realised that i didnt bring enough cash with me.
HOW DUMB CAN I BE?
so i just bought whatever i could, and left for HERE.
hmm.. my exams are coming.. dont think that i can audi much.
( dont be sad. i'll be back after exams! :) )
and i cant go out anymore too.
planning to stay home more after this..
study study study! ><
books books books!
SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP! ^^
great. my dear bf is looking again.
now i know why.. he only looks when his game is lagging.
okay forget it. i take back that sentence..
I AM SO BOREDD!
lucky gt lexy and mimi on MSN chatting with me.
and jiewei. asking me how to woo a girl. and i asked Alexx.
i wanted to type that answer that Alexx gave me, but he say so fast.
whatever he said i barely had time to catch then he mai say liao,
and went back to dota.
HAIISH! bored bored bored.
bahh. i stop here now.
later go home then snatch comp frm DAJIE and continue writing..
unable to concentrate at such a noisy environment,
plus got someone keep looking..
dont know who lorhh...

WAAH! NOT AGAIN!

I AM SICK AGAIN! ><"
i have zero idea why..
i didnt eat anything for today cept for my dinner.
( my dinner shld be clean since my mom ate the same as me and nothing happened to her. )
so.. the roots cant be because of my meals.
neither can it be due to the weather,
since i did nt get drenched at all as my mom fetched me frm school.
it cant be frm anyone eg. my friends..
cos no one is sick!
THEN WHY AM I SICK? =="
can it be due to the lack of sleep?
i havent been getting sufficient sleep recently..
perhaps thats the cause of everything bahh.
its not like i dont wanna sleep.
i must admit.. I LOVE SLEEPING!
but i either dont have the time to sleep, or sth is bothering me, or my biological clock is nt working along with my brain.
SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP!
its what i want now. but i cant have it. BOOHOO!
how come i have a feeling after someone reads this, i'm gonna get a phone call then an hour long of "CARING WORDS" !
where's my death bed?
i can lie on there now and sleep forever.. nt waking up..

i'm seriously so boredd..
suppose to be talking to Alexx on the phone now but dont know what he doing.
bathing? talking on the phone? stuck in audition? sleeping?
YAWNN! still have tons of homework undone.
cant be bothered bout them. i'll just burn midnight oil and complete them all.
cant believed i talked my math tuition teacher into letting me off early today.
way too lethargic. been groaning and moaning throughout his lesson.
can see that he's getting fed up of me. =X
i doubt he has any other students like me..
for his other students he only has to use 10% of his intelligence..
for me, he has to use a 110%.
wanna noe why?
well, i am a fast-learner and can catch onto things fast.
but for the sake of fun,
i will say HUH? I DUNNO WHAT YOU TALKING. CAN YOU SAY IT AGAIN?
then he has to repeat all over again while i day-dream. =X
seriously, listening to all those understanding of the mathematical formulas..
its not really that boring, but when i'm not in the mood to learn or know,
i guess it just simply does not interest me.. i do try to learn.. but..
my mind has flown off to somewhere else..

i'm seriously tiredd..
very lethargic.. plus i still have to go out with Alexx again tmr.
so i'll think i'll just stop here because..
I TOO NEED A 110% OF INTELLIGENCE WHEN DEALING WITH HIM!
i cant believe till now, i've never won one round before..
eh Alexx, what kind of magic are you using arh?
why always you win derr!
even when i play scissors paper stone with jiahao..
during lesson time just for the sake of relieving ourselves from boredom,
at least i still win him a few rounds ONCE IN A BLUE MOON.
speaking of scissors paper stone..
jiahao is the only one who wins me all the time! RAWR!
wonder how he does it.. need to steal his secret formula of winning. =X
OOPS! someone is getting jealous!
AH-OH! better run before i get strangled again...
*RUNSS!

its not bout the future, its not about the past, its about the present..

hmm.. GENN arh..
bout e question you asked me yestd,
i kept thinking bout it.
i have no idea why, but what you said really made me think twice..
and my final conclusion is..
i would still stick to the answer that i gave you yestd.
i would still take this risk..
because, i trust him, and i believe him.
i am more than willing to face the consequences without any regrets,
as i know that i've at least tried and done my very best.
i know that you're afraid that i will get hurt,
afraid that i might get ditched and end up like the other girls..
but how would you really know all this?
those are the future..
the unforesee-ables..
the unpredictables..
we never really know what might actually happen in the future,
as every step we take now affects the future..

i always believed that when i have 2 choices to make,
its like reaching a fork-end..
i either go right or go left,
either way would lead me to a destination,
a different future.
no matter which path i take, i know i cant double-back again.
so.. since i have walked down this path, i would continue with it.
if there are hills and mountains on this path,
i would just climb them and cross them..
it might be hard but the experience i gain is what is most worthy of.
i might even perhaps gained some other rewards as well.
i cant possibly double-back because i've seen the hills and mountains..
as time does not stop and it would definitely not re-wind itself just for me..
even if the time in my world stops,
the time of the universe would never stop,
the earth would still rotate,
the sun would still rise from the east and set at the west..

so whats the use of regretting my actions?
admit the mistakes, accept the misunderstandings, forgive & forget.
cherish what i have now and continue living my life to its fullest!
i dont wanna regret when the last moment of my life has arrived.
all i want right now is to be with him, stay by him, take care of him..
heck all those fears and worries about the future!
throw them all away in the rubbish bin!
look at whats right infront of me and hold onto it TIGHT!
well, i wanna quote one sentence from him,
" i'm gonna hold onto you tight. you can dream on me letting you go. no matter how hard you pull, you are only gonna be the one who's hand is tired. "
well.. i'm gonna do the same you MORON!
though i doubt i have the strength to hold on like you do..
so go easy on me arh you!
dont always bully me =X

give me a moment to re-cap what i wanna say.
LEXUS LIAN is spamming me in MSN again.
bother..
i forgot.. i'm really turning into a gongdaikia..
great. now he wants me to audi with him..
i guess i'll just stop here then since i've apparently forgotten all that i wanted to say.
and to think that i stayed awake for 1 hour after talking to Alexx on the phone,
figuring out what i should write today..
HEY LEXY! you owe me one for today i tell you!
you better rmb to return me when i go AUS this december.
oh! and the air tickets and etc. have all been booked,
SO YOU CANT ESCAPE FROM RETURNING ME THIS FAVOR!

p.s. HE'S BACK! and i've never slept more soundly ever since he left.. :)

TEAMING OF THE SIBLINGS!

hmm.. i know its only 8.06am in the morning,
but considering the fact that i normally wake up around 10-11am.
this is considered early and abnormal for me.
actually,
i woke up at 2am, then again at 4.46am, then again at 6.07am, then again at 7.30am.
the 1st time i woke up was because i had a stupid idiot dream again!
arrgh! i have seriously no idea why i keep having dreams recently,
perhaps i should tell my daddy to make me a medicine
which can let me sleep much more smoothly.
getting sick of being scared half to death in the dreams,
then suddenly waking up to find that those incidents are dreams,
dreams which are fake and MIGHT nt come true.
well, the 2nd time i woke up..
was because someone gave me a morning call which i am PERFECTLY PLEASED OF!
seriously, i'd rather he wake me up then to let me continue worrying bout him non-stop.
to get an sms from him is hard when he is so busy,
furthermore he was in US.
this little sacrifice of sleeping a little less is worthy of giving up after all :)
so..
i was kept awake for bout half an hour before dozing off again hugging my pigpig.
the 3rd time i woke up was because of a dream again!
DREAMS DREAMS & MORE DREAMS!
whats up with the nice fairytale and loving dreams.
why are all my dreams scary ones which make me worry and get scared half to death?!
sth is really wrong over here!
but anyway, i stayed awake for bout 10mins,
convincing myself that they were dreams and all fake before dozing off again.
the 4th time i woke up was because my biological clock has gone hay-wired.
probably due to OVER-WORRYING!
i did try to get back to sleep,
i laid there for bout half an hour,
but my brain was already whirring in progress,
part of it was working out my schedule for today,
while the other part was worrying non-stop again.
how i wish he can be back as soon as possible.
i think i'm gonna go mad due to over-worrying for him.
well at least, he's returning already!
the earliest he would sg would be tonight,
the latest is tomorrow during dawn. (i started calculating the probability of what time he would reach sg due to over-boredom! :D)

to think that i worry so much bout him and he played a prank on him yestd. RAWR!
i had every temptation to kill him and babyy yestd.
i was already waiting like mad, worrying like mad,
and he played this idiot prank on me! WITH HIS DEAR SISTER,BABYY!

this was what happened..
as i have said previously that if my assumption of the time he would take to reach US is correct,
he would reach there around SG time 2300.
so i stayed awake waiting for his sms..
i was already very very tired cos i woke up at 2am the previous night.
then i recieved this sms from babyy saying..
JIE! GT PPLE HACK INTO KOR'S ACC! YOU QUICKLY COME ONLINE LEHS!
upon reading this sms,
my worry-meter increased by 2x.
cos he told me once that someone hacked into his acc before,
and spent all his money.
so i rushed out of my room to find my dad using the comp.
beg my dad to let me use for 5mins,
went into audi with his acc,
talked to babyy said the hacker left,
then i talked to deViL and then deViL revealed a vital information to me without realising what went wrong, this was what he said,
HUH? someone hacked into his acc just now? but the person who came online just now was none other then the genuine Zhu himself. how can he log into audi while he is US. he cfm in SG larh.
at this sentence, i was getting really confused..
babyy said that the hacker was someone else and definitely not Zhu himself,
then deViL claimed that it was Zhu himself..
i was seriously getting blurr..
i asked deViL for evidence and he said that the person who logged into -TWINS-MrZhu just now called him dar! the nickname that zhuzhu gave deViL (the 2 of them are ghey partners!)
then i asked babyy for evidence that this person who locked into -TWINS-MrZhu was not zhu himself and she couldnt give me any.
my brain started whirring, fixing the puzzles tgt one by one..
then i searched babyy and found her in free3, rm 035.
the EXACT ONE that deViL was in.
then deViL pmed me again,
correcting EVERYTHING he said. saying that the person who logged in was not zhuzhu and zhu was in US nt SG..
my brain was already proccessing everything at top speed,
i knew sth was wrong. STH WAS REALLY WRONG!
( My Dear Alexx. I AM NT THAT DUMB YOU KNOW! i have an intelligent IQ of 143! if you want to fool me, COVER all the evidence! not PROVIDE all the evidence! )
at that moment, i told babyy to call zhu,
she said that she was able to get through his phone.
HE HAD EVEN CALLED HER BACK WHEN SHE MISSED CALL HIM!
i was about to ask her what did he say to her when she dc-ed and nv returned.

my brain processed the above possibilities that were happening,
1. Alexx babyy and deViL were up to sth.
2. Alexx lied to me and didnt go to US, he was still in SG.

i had deViL as my next target.
i asked him what he, babyy & zhuzhu were up to since she rushed over to find him at the mention of his name when i told her bout zhu being the 0ne who came online.
he said nothing! there was nothing going on.
that dismissed my first possibility thus leaving only the 2nd one applicable.
ASSUMING that zhu had lied to me really made me very dejected.
i started wondering why he lied to me and etc.
i turned off the comp and went back to my room.
then i found 1missed call and 1 sms waiting for me..
both were from Alexx.
apparently, he had called to explain to me but since i didnt pick up his call he smsed instead.
this was what he said. ( due to privacy, some parts would not be mentioned of! )
" Wa.. dont want listen.. Nvm ba.. my acc tio hack by me la.. now is US time 12.57pm.. "
i knew he wasnt lying to me, he was really in US.
then he called me again.. explaining everything..
saying that it was actually a surprise for me..
i almost skinned him alive!
play a prank on me.. grr..
so.. we chatted on the phone..
he told me what was going on in US... and he also..
GAVE ME A COUPLE OF SCOLDINGS AND WARNINGS AS WELL!
i know he cares bout me :)
that is what i needed. care & concern.
well.. knowing his safe was all thats important,
and finally i was set at ease and dozed off to sleep..

hmm.. come to think bout it..
i should kill deViL as well!
if he hadnt dismiss my 1st possiblity,
i could have proved myself right!
anyway, so what if i've proved myself right?
i would have not known that Alexx cared so much bout me.
it was a worthy trade after all :)
well.. he's coming back to SG in..
ermm.. err.........................................
19 HOURS!
less than 1 day! but still.. 10 hours plus..
nvm! its okay! i shall think positive! i shall be optimistic!
HE'S COMING BACK! :)

the agony of waiting.

great..
here i sit typing in this in the EARLY MORNING at 4.06am.
probably will get killed if he knows that i am not sleeping..
but still..
HEY! this is nt my fault.
off he is in a plane to USA now.
while i am stuck right at home in SG.
its not easy going to sleep and then after barely 3 hours of sleep,
i got woken up by a stupid dream..
so now i'm stuck here in sg waiting for his return..
bahh! who cares?
i LOVE sg!
love it for its WARM & BRIGHT weather for 365 days every year.
love it for its EVERLASTING greenery for 365 days every year.
love it for this MULTI-RACIAL society for 365 days every year.
love it for the SMALLNESS, which brings a sense of closeness among all singaporean, 365days every year.

ANYWAY!
on saturday (15/03),
i went to Escape Theme Park with the some of the TWINS members.
my mom would probably kill me if she knew i went out of strangers.
but you see..
if we went out the first time,
knew each other..
then we're not considered to be strangers! hehe :)
at first, my mom didnt allow me to go..
saying that i hadnt completed my hw etc. (always those excuses to prevent me frm going out!)
BUT!
what she didnt know was..
i can be a hw maniac when i want.
so..
i rushed thru my HUMONGOUS pile of hw,
and managed to complete..
E MATH, A MATH, A CHINESE SHORT STORY! (min 2.5 pages long!)
its quite an achievement cos i did it all in like..
2hrs? maybe 3.. anyway..
normally i can drag my hw the whole day and only completed like..half of the A MATH?
so..
FOR MY GOOD BEHAVIOUR!
i was allowed to go to Escape Theme Park! YEAH! and my daddy was fetching me there..
so i was thinking..
hmm.. since he's fetching me there, i guess i wont be too late..
but then! my dad drove me to Pasir Ris Park instead.
i was like HUH? what is this place.
then my dad was like YOU MEAN ITS THE WRONG VENUE?
how cute can my dad be? lols.
to sum up, he got me there in the end.

DAMN!! there's this teeny weeny flying insects flying all around me now. IRRITATING!
must be the bright light coming frm the computer screen thats attracting them.

so.. off to escape and i was fine at first,
cos i didnt have lunch so sitting the rides so fine..
but the GOOD lasted nt very long.
we went into BURGER KING..
and i saw the Hershey Sundae Pie.. and was SO tempted by it..
that idiot deViL kept encouraging me to buy it saying very nice..
in e end, i bought it. i must admit it was nice..
BUT IT RUINED MY RIDES!!
how i wished i'd listen to Alexx instead..
that idiot pie was full of cream..
and my next ride was RAINBOW.
that was all right since it didnt consist of my stomach lurging up and down..
BUT THE RIDE AFTER THE NEXT WAS PIRATE SHIP.
that was the disaster!
i swear i almost puked out all the sundae pie on that 'fishing' ride.
Dolleh was too shocked by the ride so she couldnt talk to me..
my face was all green (according to Alexx)
i was feeling so unwell and kept my eyes close like in a sleeping position on the ride.
when i heard Alexx shouting at me frm the other end (he was sitting opp. me)
HEY! DONT YOU PUKE OUT HORH! DONT YOU PUKE ON ME ARH!
one word came across my mind to describe him.. MORON!
but since i am a very nice person of cos i didnt say that to him :)
Alexx kept me company throughout the rest of the pirate ship..
we were communicating by shouting across at one another.
damn! thinking bout it now..
i think we looked pretty much like idiots.. shouting at one another frm each end. LOL! =X
so.. that idiot sundae pie ruined e rest of my day.
i was holding back the temptation to puke all e time.
and Ezra still force me to ride the Inverter..
lucky Alexx took my place and sat it for me.. or i guess Ezra would have bugged me non-stop.
by e time i finally left Escape it was bout..7.30pm?
and i was supposed to be home by 8.
lucky mom was out with AhMa and Dad had this chinese physician lessons.
so.. WHEW!
since yan, ezra bearbear and devil wanted to have dinner,
and i was rushing for time..
they were still at escape deciding their dinner when me and alexx left..
the bad thing bout the BUS at Escape was that there was only one bus and it took AGES to come.
i might have gone mad if i was waiting alone.. lucky alexx was there..
so we chatted and chatted and chatted.. till that freaking bus came.
and in the MRT ride home.. we chatted and chatted and chatted..
i reached home bout 10pm and guess what!
my parents were not at home yet and my sister was going out to ZOUK.
so i was left at home..
lucky i was beat-out so i fell asleep almost immediately..

FOR YESTERDAY (20/03),
i was meeting Alexx to go with me to VivoCity to collect my contact lenses.
well.. jingting was suppose to come at first..
but then after that i told her not to come..
cos i was afraid i might ps her..
then Alexx told me he was bringing his fren(weijie) along..
so i told jt to come..
she almost killed me since it was a last min decision..
but as usual.. being a very kind-hearted person..
she came along after all!
well.. it was my first time wearing contacts..
and the idea of sticking my finger into my eyes was kinda exciting to me..
i kept blinking at first and could barely get it in..
Alexx was standing right beside me sneering.. zz.. i'll get my hands on him the next time..
(p.s. jingting was off with weijie cos they didnt want to sit around waiting for half an hour)
but still.. i manage to get it in.
AT LEAST. i spend less time than you alexx..putting it on for my first try and taking it out.
i didnt know why i took so long to put it in and barely spend a few seconds to take the lenses out.
FASCINATING!
so..after that we stated walking around looking for Daiso
while jt went home, since she had to catch the msia bus.
we walked and walked and walked,
and couldnt find it. so we gave the idea up and opted for dinner first instead.
i was seriously nt hungry though i didnt eat lunch and only had 3 mouths of bread for breakfast.
but that Alexx had to force me saying he wont eat till i eat..
knowing how hungry he is, i sacrificed..
gosh! i still cant forget that BIG plate of spaghetti w/ grilled fish plus 4 slices of garlic bread he ordered for himself.
that guy can really eat and nt gain weight!
while i had the suckiest bowl of ban mian i ever ate in my life.
i even found a strand of hair in it. EEW!
i only ate bout 1/4 and gave up. the noodles really sucked!
knowing that i had to get a present of some sort for POP.
we went in search for Daiso again, and this time i found it.
but guess what! THAT BIG BIG SUPERMARKET HAD ZERO THINGS WHICH I WANTED!
bother..
while taking the escalator down again, i saw Precious Thots and rushed inside it.
and i managed to find sth worthy to give my dear juniors :)
i'm nt gonna say what i got cos its a surprise..
sth for you to anticipate and sth for me hold my tongue for e moment.
while i was at Precious Thots choosing things,
Alexx and Weijie went into Mini Toons.
when i went inside to find them...
i found Alexx holding this pig bolster and when he saw me.. he chased me out of mini toons.
but still i sneaked in again cos i wanted to look at the latest eeyores in store.
i saw this fat eeyore. really fat! i was trying very hard to stiffle my laughter away.
i was seeing halfway when Alexx came up and started trailing me around..
he told me that we had to wait 5 mins for the pig bolster..
so i started going into all the shops with stuff toys..
searching for kawai plushies. most of the plushies were the same so it wasnt really fun.
soon, 5 mins was up. i was gonna proceed home when Angie called me..
she asked where i was and whether i wanted to go bunk with her and -TWINS-HuBBy.
since i had to settle Punk and Kidd0's cbox problem,
i told her i would go there but wont stay for long.
and guess who i say at bunk!
SAILESH AND ADIL!
i was so shocked. didnt expect to see anyone i knew frm schl at there.
i could see lesh was pretty shocked too. since adil's eyes were fixed on the comp screen,
i gave him a few rocks on the chair to make him acknowledge my presence. hehe :)
the part where i introduced Alexx to lesh and Adil was the most awkward.
seriously, i can give an excellent speech on stage,
but when it comes to things like introducing your friends, i must admit i sucked at it.
Alexx gave me quite a stare-down for that sudden and lousy introduction.
well.. SORRY Alexx, but when it comes to things like introducing of friends, i'm at a complete loss for words.
so, i settled the cbox prob, accompanied Angie for a few mins and then i headed for home.
oh yeah! back to the pig bolster, on my way to bunk,
Alexx gave me the pig bolster saying it was for me.
i was really shocked larh. didnt expect to be given sth..
and then again, i was at a loss for words. for that few mins, i must have looked really dumb.

well, thats pretty much everything.
i've sitted here typing for an hour plus..
and i'm still nt tired. i guess his sudden departure really struck me dumb.
sometimes i really hate myself for being such a pig.
i told him to call me before he left on the plane. he did call me..
BUT I FELL ASLEEP! zz.. hate myself now.
i seriously didnt expect him to be gone so quickly,
i was really shocked when he told me he was leaving for USA tonight..
and would only be coming back to sg on sunday.
i dreamt that he was back the very next day,
and then i was thinking in my dream how he could have returned so soon since it took 25hrs (i still rmb what sinhui told me of the duration on the flight to USA.) per journey to and fro to USA. i was thinking 25x2=50hrs 1 day is only 24 hrs.
its impossible he could have flown back so quickly.
then i woke up and couldnt fall asleep since then.
hmm.. in another.. 18 hrs he would be reaching USA..
and i have to wait for another 2days.
agony. hate waiting......

PEARL DIVER.

i found this game in miniclip. and the name reminded me of pearlie. lols.
HEY PEARLIE! I'M DIGGING FOR YOU!
you are a precious thing.
since i know how to treasure you,
you should know how to cherish yourself okay?
THIS GAME IS TO YOU PEARLIE! ♥

`YAWNN!

I AM SO LAZY TO POST.
if it wasnt for the constant nagging that i get from pple
i doubt i would even bother to come post.
YAWNN!

news no.1
MY SEC 1 GUIDES ARE ENROLLED! YEAHH!

news no.2
i made a fool of myself during the enrolment ceremony! =="
i said the wrong timing cos my brain wasnt co-working with my ears
pearl said the command in malay to a-line with the right marker
and i tot she said to turn right
GOSH! so embarrassing ><
did it infront of the guider somemore.
what in the world is wrong with me?

news no.3
i went into the hall at 7.15am for morning assembly.
then i saw rachel, went over to say hi.
and she literally blasted out..
DO YOU KNOW THAT WE ONLY GET TO PASS-OUT IN JULY?! OMGG!
my reply..
WHAT?!?! I TOT P.O.P (Passing Out Parade) IS IN MARCH?! IN LIKE 2 WEEKS TIME?!
rachel's reply..
YARH I NOE! BUT MR LIU (scss's principal) SAID SO! AND OUR ACL IS WAS CHEERING WITH JOY WHEN SHE HEARD ABOUT THIS NEWS!
my reply..
typical her..not surprised..
rachel's reply..
BUT WHAT ABOUT OUR EXAMS? ITS IN MAY AND WE GET TO PASS OUT IN JULY?!?!

that was the sentence that got me thinking.. yeah.. what about our exams?
the solution came after the enrolment ceremony,
mrs chua told us that from next week onwards..
the sec3s will be taking over the programme (YEAHH!)
thus the sec4s can come on a routine so as to supervise the sec3s (OH BOTHERR..)
PLUS. (here comes the best part)
where attendance is concerned..
i wont be very strict on you all from next week onwards.. (WOOTS!)
so there ya go. the solution! good eh?
of cos we sec4s would still have to go..
but lesser only. hehes..

well.. good luck to you sec3s since you all are taking over..
puking blood once in awhile cos of your juniors is absolutely normal (considering i had to puke blood every meeting cos i had to take the drill segment ==")
the first-aid kit is all prepared and ready in the cupboard (you would know how handy it is after seeing how accident-prone our dear juniors are)
i expect you all to know how to use the equipments in there since you have all passed your first-aid test.. i dont want any PHONE CALLS asking me WHAT SHOULD I DO ABOUT XYZ? SHE FELL DOWN AND IS BLEEDING NOW!! since you all are qualified first-aiders.
rmb the guides motto: BE PREPARED! :D

ALL THE BEST NOW! ♥