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time flies.
its August already.
8 months has passed already.
and what have i really done?
that i wonder......
man. i screwed up today's O Level EL Oral Examination.
all of it went perfectly well till the dreadful global question for conversation came.
and to think. the question was on globalisation.
it was on my favourite subj. geog.
yet. i screwed it all up. crap.
my mind went completely blank when i heard the question.
yes, i knew i had to response using my knowledge acquired from the Geog lessons.
however. i failed to do so.
i took a completely different approach from the rest of the class.
most mentioned all the things that we learned in Geog.
what with all the global warming and stuff.
all except me.
saw Mdm Zainab outside the HOD staff-room as i placed my work in the lockers.
went to her and grumbled a little.
got a little encouragement and comfort from her.
proceeded onwards to my journey home.
as i took the bus ride home.
i couldnt help but wonder. how bad can today turn out to be?
dear is heading off to Malaysia for 3 days for a family gathering.
i'm going to be missing him dearly.
though he promised to be keeping in contact with me still.
but the little girl in me couldnt help but whine a little.
its hard to be separated with the one you love.
even if he's going to continue contacting me in Malaysia.
bah.. i'm just being immature here.
and to think.
i just told him i was not going to be a total lousy girlfriend by whining.
bother..
oh well. at least it proves one fact.
his existence is important to me.
i just found out about something.
my sister knows the truth.
i doubt i could actually hide it from her anyway.
since she knows almost everything about me.
she advises me to stop dictating entries on him.
just in case eyes that are not meant to view this blog, does.
an accidental clicking of the wrong website might lead to unwanted circumstances.
thus, the neccessity to delete a few entries here.
je suis désolé...
for having to do such a thing.
merci...
for being so understanding as always.
have avoided going into AuditionSEA for 3months.
yet, i broke that record today.
was feeling rather melancholic due to all the crappy events.
am left without someone to talk to it about.
therefore, i resorted to thrashing out all the negative feelings in the online game.
felt much better when i logged out. though i only played 2 games?
Audition is really getting more and more boring lately.
maybe its because i'm sick of that game already.
however, i'm going to have to pick it up soon.
what with Qing starting to play it as well.
in addition, with her playing, its almost like all the cuz are playing Audition now?
doubt i can actually out-talk the rest from permitting my excuse.
well, at least thats going to happen after my O Levels.
for now. i'm going to set my priorities right.
its the Seventh Month.
also known as the Month of the Hungry Ghost.
parents are once again, out helping out at 会所
with the annual ritual proceedings.
they refused to let me tag along as its going to end really late.
it isnt as if i've not been to these events before.
i do know how late it ends, but so?
i wont be the only kid there anyway. the rest are there to keep me company.
i dont get why kaixiang, don and the rest get to go.
but i just dont.
they've got the Os and Ns as well.
and they're all there except for me. (grumbles.)
besides. i really want to see 师父 again.
been a really really long time since i last saw him.
it feels pretty great to be acknowledged for how much i've grown up over the years.
the last time i saw him, i was the same height as him!
and to think. the first time i saw him, i only reached his waist!
memories... i'm reminiscing them. the good ones and the bad ones.
really wish that i can be there now.
show those guys how much i've changed over the years.
am no longer that weakling who permits bullying.
will and shall stand up on my own two feet should they do it again.
however, on a second thought.
i doubt they're still that childish either.
after so many years, they should have matured and grown up.
hope they're ridicule thinking have changed.
i remember them on the path of growing up into fine young gentlemen the last time i saw them.
while for me, i was on the path of growing up into a young lady.
ah.. time really flies.
have typed quite enough.
passing my time as dear isnt around.
thus, i've got nowhere else to place my attention on.
shall end here.
will probably blogged again later on if im feeling bored again.
if not, it'll be tmr.
since he's not around.
there's nothing i can do except to study.
shall mug non-stop this weekend.
though i wonder how effective it can be,
since i'd probably be distracted with the thoughts of him.
i guess this is where self-control enters.
shall do my best in controlling these feelings....
a faithful little girl waiting for your return.....
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